Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Call me sometime

I tried to call my n-brother today. Not sure if he's still at the number that I have, but it sure would be nice to catch up with him. Of course, the entire time I was dialing, my stomach was in knots and I was scared shitless, I don't get that. Why do I get so damn worked up over calling my family? It's screwed up.

No word from mother in quite a while, I need to send our new family portraits up to her, maybe that will spark her into some sort of action. Well probably not, but I am perpetually trying. Such is the life the adopted, it's up to us to do the work if we want the contact, but it sucks. I just wish someone would want to make an effort for ME once in a while. Is that too much to ask?

3 wisecracks:

Ungrateful Little Bastard said...

No. It's NOT.

I wish they would make the effort for you too

Jon said...

Hey Lillie. Thanks for writing this post. Today i was able to speak at a funeral service for Peggy. Peggy was a beautiful elderly woman. i shared this quote with the family: "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." From all of the posts I've read on your blog, you are a person who appears to be poor in spirit. You have a deep soul, if you will. To answer your question, there actually is somebody who is always about you. but you must lay down your pride and be vulnerable. this is a frightening task because people tend to abuse vulnerability. if this makes a little sense, then great. if not, i hope it will sometime. peace.

Lillie said...

Hi Jon, and thanks for commenting.

I find it interesting that you would think that I'm not a spiritual person...hmmmm.

Oh well anyway, I appreciate your comment. Thanks. :)

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