Monday, November 16, 2009

Seeing mom

I am excited, I will be seeing my mother in two days. Nothing spectacular, just meeting up for dinner, but it's something.

Usually our emails are sporadic...well, I will email her pretty consistently and jump to reply to anything she sends to me, but coming from her, it takes days and days to reply if I get one at all. So when I asked her if she was busy on this particular night, I was quite shocked to get an instant reply. And not one but many as we planned the evening.

I had been trying to get in touch with my brother too, and she gave me his phone number. I hope he can make it, I haven't seen him in so long.

I've been debating back and forth with myself if I should share my blog or even possibly the forum with him. A big part of me thinks that he would be very receptive to this, that he would in some way understand, and that it would help solidify our relationship and bring us closer. We don't talk directly all that often but, I don't know, maybe by just being able to read what I say at his convenience, it would help. But then again there's that small adopted side of me that says "Don't do it!! He'll reject you for sure!!" I hate that part of me.

So wish us luck, I hope the evening goes well. I doubt any serious, deep discussion will happen, but it's a tiny step forward in this all but stalled relationship.

3 wisecracks:

Ungrateful Little Bastard said...

Oh Lillie!

You have no idea how happy this made me when I saw it in my reader. Seriously happy crying here for you.

Anonymous said...

I'm so incredibly happy for you Lillie...I started crying just like ULB. Powerful and touching stuff.



Von said...

Hope it went well, little adopted you will have that reaction but adult you will take care and do the right things.Don't hate that part of you it has so much to teach you.

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